This is a bit of a difficult thing how to go about this as I've tried using google but obviously had no luck with my problem.
I'm on JSA shortly after leaving college for about 3 months now and frankly it's getting too much.
Signing on is fine the people that do it are generally lovely towards me, it's my adviser he is just so arrogant towards me.
Each time I've gone he's done nothing but threaten and harass me with potential sanctions if I don't kneel down and beg mercy, I'd love to say I'm exaggerating but I dont see how in some ways he's just that annoying, I do more than the minimum jobsearch activity each week every single day.
I feel like I'm being "bullied" into work just to meet the targets he's been set, I'd like to discuss going on training courses and such but he never gives me time to discuss things, he just picks at random jobs that are too far out for me seeing as I have to rely on public transport and the costs would be worse off than I am on JSA already, he even saved a job on universal jobmatch that was over a month old expecting me to apply for it, honestly most the jobs on there are So outdated I've seen some listed far back as august of 2012.
My problem is I feel like I suffer from depression from when I was younger and when I self harmed which I don't do haven't done it in 3 years, I just know my depression is related to that, anytime i am in a bad situation I feel terrible emotionally and my adviser is making it worse, I've already stated to a few close friends and family that I have considered hanging myself because of the pressure I'm under from him and the more he puts on, a person has their limits.
Also I don't believe I'm fit to work safely, I have a real bad habit of staring into space, I have memory lapses where I can forget what I was told to do barely a minute ago.
For example this morning I was asked to take the rubbish into the bins while I was washing the dishes and making breakfast when I finished the dishes and made breakfast I just sat down to have the coffee I'd made and had to be reminded to take the rubbish out and it was barely a minute before I was told.
It's hardly safe for me to really work isn't it? I'm not in a mentally fit enough state to do it not yet atleast, with my staring into space issue and memory lapses it's hardly safe for me to work isn't it? I don't want to suddenly stare into space if I'm say helping someone lift heavy things that would just cause them harm if I suddenly dropped the item.
Is there some way I can still have money coming in but by making me exempt from working anywhere?
It'd be till I can gain a clear head and when I'd be pretty safe to work around others.
I'm on JSA shortly after leaving college for about 3 months now and frankly it's getting too much.
Signing on is fine the people that do it are generally lovely towards me, it's my adviser he is just so arrogant towards me.
Each time I've gone he's done nothing but threaten and harass me with potential sanctions if I don't kneel down and beg mercy, I'd love to say I'm exaggerating but I dont see how in some ways he's just that annoying, I do more than the minimum jobsearch activity each week every single day.
I feel like I'm being "bullied" into work just to meet the targets he's been set, I'd like to discuss going on training courses and such but he never gives me time to discuss things, he just picks at random jobs that are too far out for me seeing as I have to rely on public transport and the costs would be worse off than I am on JSA already, he even saved a job on universal jobmatch that was over a month old expecting me to apply for it, honestly most the jobs on there are So outdated I've seen some listed far back as august of 2012.
My problem is I feel like I suffer from depression from when I was younger and when I self harmed which I don't do haven't done it in 3 years, I just know my depression is related to that, anytime i am in a bad situation I feel terrible emotionally and my adviser is making it worse, I've already stated to a few close friends and family that I have considered hanging myself because of the pressure I'm under from him and the more he puts on, a person has their limits.
Also I don't believe I'm fit to work safely, I have a real bad habit of staring into space, I have memory lapses where I can forget what I was told to do barely a minute ago.
For example this morning I was asked to take the rubbish into the bins while I was washing the dishes and making breakfast when I finished the dishes and made breakfast I just sat down to have the coffee I'd made and had to be reminded to take the rubbish out and it was barely a minute before I was told.
It's hardly safe for me to really work isn't it? I'm not in a mentally fit enough state to do it not yet atleast, with my staring into space issue and memory lapses it's hardly safe for me to work isn't it? I don't want to suddenly stare into space if I'm say helping someone lift heavy things that would just cause them harm if I suddenly dropped the item.
Is there some way I can still have money coming in but by making me exempt from working anywhere?
It'd be till I can gain a clear head and when I'd be pretty safe to work around others.